BaCk sTaBbInG!!

How many times in life have you felt cheated? how many times have you felt stabbed, right behind your back... when it comes from someone unknown its still gulpable! But when it comes from someone who claims to be your friend, someone whom u showed some trust in...

Somethings always hold true when it comes to MONEY - no one will stick by you if u dont have money and also when you have money people will try to rob you off it no matter who he/she is! how close you are to someone is sometimes a function of how much moolah do you have in your pocket or how fat your wallet really is...

Somethings should stay the way they are somethings are better said than done! but in the end its a race and you are running it with your won self. Winning or losing are 2 different aspects of the same coin!

Things are dirty right now, things are messy at the moment, but it can always get messier & dirtier if somethings come out in the open, somethings stand out if they are out there in the bright sunlight, why would a so called friend try to dupe you of money and that too at a time when they clearly know that you dont have it, not talking about a meagre amount here talking about some vast multiples of 1000's - but its a thing of the past and as they say you cannot change anything...

The past is the thing of the past and should remain that way... no matter how hard you try no matter what you do it will still loom above you and be like an albatross round the neck, which you simply cant shake off!

If you have friends like these who on earth needs enemies?!

It is worth a thought might not be of importance now that i look back but then it never was - i have developed tremendous amount of patience and now its a treasure that i have - adding to my persona... so when they say whatever happens, happens for the good... all i say is TRUE! TRUE!

Affect-ing

Its now become one of those days in in of those weeks of those months... can add the fact of being one of those years - coz its not even been a year!

But then it looms, am i being able to fulfil what i am here for? or is it something that is affecting me? its not an effect, its A-F-F-E-C-T!! something that usually hampers you, hampers you from growing, hampers your performance!

Cause of this kind of syndromes are many - sometimes manyfold! one leads to another to another to another and its usually very difficult to pinpoint the exact cause of this AFFECT - can be emotional, can be physical, can be mental so on and so forth.

Usually AFFECT makes you lethargic, dis-interested BUT the most important AFFECT that AFFECT has on you is - putting your position in jeopardy! and its like a double edged sword, till the time luck favours you, you can survive but when you run out of luck - you have to succumb, succumb to the hands of your boss, superior, family and sometimes even friends...

The amount of frustration this can cause cannot be put in words... its like a volcano waiting to erupt... and u know when it does it will melt everything in its path and even some part of you but then u dont want it to erupt, always do something to supress the eruption and then all goes haywire, sometimes they say its better for things to take a natural course and when u supress things from taking the natural course, it again AFFECTS a lot of things - this is an ideal case for questions - the eternal "Y?"

Guess its true when someone said that LUCK favours the BRAVE! no matter how brave you try to be.. the rub off is always an AFFECT!!!!

Why!?!?

"Why?" is all i ask! there is not much to this question! perhaps is the only smallest full fledged question known to man, can be completed with one alphabet also "y?"

The worst part about is the answer! no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do, no matter how much you use those coveted grey cells, it still remains there in the same way smiling at you face, making you look like a fool, in full bloom!

This post is not about love, romance, destiny and fate. this post is about qustioning yourself, this answer to the WHY? coz it will haunt you and hunt you down sometimes or the other.

Its a classic case - mom i am going out with friends... why?
i want to buy this/buy that...why?
i think i like her...why?
oh it slipped my mind...why?
she likes me...why?
mom my friends are coming over...why?
i'll be late, have an extra class...why?
i got a discount...why?
i wish i could go there...why?

WHY is also perhaps the only counter question to any question on this earth... its like a vicious circle.

the ideal scenario being, i think i wanna do this, prove my point, move on with life, show that i am worth it, get some recognition...W-H-Y???

these questions are also work related. and when they are, they can wreck havoc in your life, coz ur productivity decreases while trying to figure out the answer to this why....

i wonder sometimes... why cant i ask my superiors why? and why is the boss always right? why does he always have a counter question even to your why? why is that s/he are so great that they can get away with their why's? and u are left there stranded in the middle of no-where!

just beacuse it depends on them, your life depends on it? just beacuse they are bigger, meaner, stronger??? just because they are experienced?

experienced with what? just about what? well my parents wrote me an email today...

started it with - dont get annoyed but we are worried about you... i agree parents are worried and they care a lot... why do superiors worry??? whats about?

you think you have it in you to answer it? is there a chance in hell when you have the upper hand to a why? rendering the person standing in front of you, speechless....

i think about it a lot, no i dont think about it at all.....